Today is day 4. Let’s say that it’s interesting. I feel…different. I’m feeling better, generally. I feel like I’m climbing out of the black hole that is a fibro flare-up. I’m still fatigued. There’s a difference between between being tired and a bone deep feeling of not being able to move a muscle. Not having anything to do or thin about, not being sleep, and yet content to lie on your back. Or pissed off and unable to do anything but lie on your back. I’m not that bad…although I was last week. And that’s the thing. I’m not that bad. In fact, I felt well enough to do some cleaning for the first time in a while. Actual, get down on my hands and knees and scrub out the bathtub kind of cleaning.
Yesterday, a friend mentioned that my color is better. She couldn’t describe the difference, but she said I looked better, healthier.
I feel less puffy, and my face isn’t red and blotchy. My skin tone looks more even to me. Without makeup.
This is also the 2nd day in a row that I didn’t reach for the NSAIDs as soon as I woke up. I woke up with some pain, but it worked out as I got moving. Now I have some muscle pain, but I got really jiggy with my foam roller yesterday, and I think I’m a little sore from that. However, this late in the afternoon, I’m think that the throbbing in my right hip is calling for some pharmaceutical attention.
Dinner last night was more of the turkey that I made on Sunday, with a stir fry of shredded broccoli and carrots in coconut oil with some nutritional yeast as a flavoring as well as a couple of drops of sesame oil, also for flavor. The lack of soy sauce is bothering me, though.
Breakfast was 2 free-range eggs over easy, fried in ghee and a half grapefruit, which is starting to taste sweeter to me.
My craving have been for artificial sweetener even more than sugar. It’s wild, but I’m craving that supernormal sweetness on the berries I eat for dessert. I miss it in my tea, but not like on fruit. I wonder if fructose and sucralose combine to form a super-super-super sweetness and do something dirty with the pleasure receptors in the brain. The craving reminds me of quitting smoking. Yikes.
That’s really all the cravings I’ve been having. I guess having been gluten free is saving me from that withdrawal, and I’m not missing the dairy NEARLY as much as I thought I would.
Dinner tonight will be steak, since I’m picking up a meat order from the butcher. maybe a sweet potato and something really green – kale or spinach. Wonder if I’m looking for magnesium.
Another day, another ramble.
My mood seems lighter.
But the real difference is that I’m starting to feel differently inside my body. I don’t know if I can get that idea across. Not better, not worse, but just…different.
Still having trouble falling asleep, not really raring to go in the morning. I know that can take 2 weeks or more to happen.
Today I’m tired, and thirsty (my blood sugar is okay though) so I’m drinking a lot. I have no idea what toxins my body is releasing, between the smoking, grains, dairy, etc. That I’ve been working on MELT exercises means I’m hydrating fascia, and that is probably a disgusting process of flushing metabolites that have built up in the tissue. Yuck. the more water I drink, the better I’ll feel.